Air Force Wife?

You got it! David was accepted into the United States Air Force Reserve. :) He is being sworn in this weekend. His dates are still not posted on when he leaves, but I honestly don't care. just knowing we are moving forward with this whole process has been one of the biggest weights lifted off of us. Praise Jesus!We are going up to the base this weekend to watch his ceremony. I am so proud of him! I am almost officially an Air Force Wife! Yayyyyy!!! I will try to keep you all posted on more about what he is having to do and when he gets his dates for OTS (Officer Training School.) So.Happy.Right.Now.

What's on This Crazy Mind

I have now been off Facebook for almost 4 months and I can't explain to you how "freeing" it is. I just love not being consumed with it. You know what I love the most? I NEVER start a conversation like "Did you read on Facebook about So and So?" OR in the middle of a conversation, I never say "Yeah, I saw that on Facebook!" I love it! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT!!!!! Now that is said and done, I also miss it. I miss knowing what everyone is doing. However it has made me more aware of how to communicate using other methods. Like the telephone. Or having lunch with people. Ah, the good ol days. :) Will I ever get back on Facebook? No, probably not. Now that I have all this free time, I can blog, play in my garden, and focus on things that actually matter in my life. We even got rid of our television. Well, ok, not our actual T.V. but the Dish Network. We have about 4 channels. If we want to watch something else, we do have Netflix, but we are rarely watching either device. Addison Jean is now 15 months old already. Could she be any sweeter? Seriously. She is a doll. I can never kiss her enough and love on her. She is my princess. She has given our family a whole new love. My brother is possibly the best dad on earth. David still hasn't heard yet from the AirForce, July 13th is our day to find out his dates and if he made the cut. Still waiting for that date to start our family. I am a planner ya know! Can't wait until the end of July. Celebrating my grandparent's 61st wedding anniversary and of course, seeing my favorite sister in the whole wide world. Its been so hot here lately, not that I am complaining, but it has made me realize how not that skinny I am. When nothing fits right and I am sweating constantly, I feel like I notice this more and more. Why is it that girls can't just be okay with how they look/feel? I am not saying I am fat by any means, but I wouldn't mind being a little smaller ;) OH WELL, I am over that already. I am ready to not be working... that is for sure. As much as I love my job, I would also love being home and raising kids or watching Addi Jean. Bleh! Oh well, soon enough I hope. Off to go play in my yard with our Sadie dog. I will keep everyone posted on how this next Friday turns out!

Patience is a virtue?

Well, we are still currently waiting to hear from the air force to see if and when David leaves. The national board met last week to make their final cut. Only 35 out of the 50 applicants will be hired on. He was sponsored by the McCord airforce base in Tacoma Washington, but the national board holds all the cards. I am exhausted. I honestly don't know how I will react if he doesn't get in. Right now, I can't even think that way or I will have a panic attack. I will keep everyone posted on what the outcome is. Hopefully this week! It is getting harder for me to be happy for all the pregnant people in my life. Call it selfish or jealousy, but it's difficult. Mostly, because I feel like we are taking all these steps to make sure everything is "right" whatever that means, and then everywhere I look, someone is pregnant that isn't taking the "right" steps. Frustrating. That's the best word for it. My heart aches to be able to have David's baby. To look down and hold a love that I so crave. I will continue to wait because I have to.... But I'm not happy about it! Lol. As for something else? I get to see my sweet sister this summer for a week. I can not wait to have fun memories and laugh until I pee. I miss having that one person that can totally get me. I mean, I have awesome friends, don't get me wrong. But there is something about having that one person in your life that I honestly feels like is connected to me. Even though we aren't technically sisters, I think of us as just that. Yahhhhhhhh for July!

Slowly breathing

People tell me all the time, patience is a virtue. Obviously they have either never met me... Or don't know me well. I hate waiting for anything. We are still waiting on the AirForce. I am ready to start our family. I am ready to be a mom. It Is getting harder for me to bite my tongue lately when I have so much negative support on the subject. I have heard everything from how I should wait until David is done with all his training to you should have kids in your thirties. I get that some people just want to give their opinion, but I guess I am done listening unless it is a positive reinforcement on the decision David and I have made. We know what we want and what we are willing to do to have it. Now why can't everyone else see that? I am believing for great things to happen to us in the next few months, wether we have everyone's support or not. We are going to be awesome parents with amazing children. I am going to be the best mom I know how to be. I will conquer this new season in our life. I will learn to breathe in slowly and do what is right for us. Not what I think everyone else wants me to do, But what David and I want to do. David gets his orders in june and from that moment on, our lives will never be the same. We are looking ahead And moving in an awesome direction. Wow, two years of trying to get into the AirForce and it is now only a couple of weeks away. Yesssssss! No, for the record, we are not currently pregnant. :)

All Is Clear

So I had my procedure done this week. A lovely colonoscopy. What a challenge that was! I guess, like everyone says, the worst part of the whole thing was the drink. After that was finished, it was a breeze. I remember laying in the bed at the surgery room and thinking, there is no way they can knock me out that fast... and then I was waking up. The next thing I remembered was the doctor coming in telling me everything looked great. They found a polyp and removed it. Some how, and it still boggles my mind, I have skin tags up there and that is what has been making me so uncomfortable the past 3 months. So I am on medication right now and feel great. A little gassy, but great! I am looking forward to getting back to my eating habits and working out again. :)

Goodbye Social Media

Life without Facebook. Could you do it? I am challenging myself to do such a crazy thing. Lately, I have felt so "involved" in other people's lives, that it has taken it's toll on me. I am pretty sure I checked my Facebook a good 10 times a day. And for what? To read everyone's status', to see their pictures, to see who is doing what and with who. I am turning over a new leaf. Finding more for me to do. I can't spend all that time looking thru stuff that doesn't really matter to me. I have the phone numbers and emails I need to keep in touch with the people I love.

To be honest, Facebook made me think I didn't have everything I wanted. I think it is a slippery slope to be on a website and start thinking that you need more than what you have. For instance, you might think it is an innocent message or innocent looksie at someone's page. But why are you really reaching out and doing it? What is it about curiosity that gets us every time? I have decided to get away from that. To still keep in touch with the people I care about, and forget the one's that I don't care about and that really don't care about me.

I love my life and I love how it is. I refuse to let doubt get involved. I am bigger and better than all that. Let's see how long I can do this!!! My goal... to be off Facebook as long as I possibly can :)

Here Goes Nothing...Or Is It Something?

So, some of you know, I have been having "issues" for sometime now with a lot of stuff and my body. Not to get too graphic, but for the majority of my life... eating out at a restaurant was a stressful nightmare. I knew, no matter what I ordered, I would have a time limit on when I would have to be home... in the bathroom. However, when I stopped eating processed foods, I became much healthier and... what appeared to be in a normal state.
Which brings me to my next topic. I am sure I am fine and healthy. But there is something that keeps telling me... you need to see a doctor. I have been noticing things aren't right and they aren't getting better. In fact, they are getting worse. I am scheduled for a colonoscopy in about a week. Nervous? Not really... I guess the only thing I am a bit concerned about is the liquid I have to drink before the procedure. My grandfather has been diagnosed, and beat, colon cancer several times. Which, kinda just puts me at a higher risk for things.
Anyways, I will keep you all posted on how THAT goes. I am sure I will have funny things to tell you about what happens, what I might say or do, and what they have found. All I can ask for is to find answers and a solution to this.

Taste of the Air Force

So this is what it will be like when David is off flying and serving our country. The first night he was in Ohio, I didn't think I could last the rest of the week. Sadie woke me up in the middle of the night barking with her hackles up. I was pretty sure I was going to have to stay at my parents for the rest of tho week. However, I some how fell asleep that night after settling the dog down. I think the neighbors got home and the car door shutting woke up the little pup. When I woke up Monday morning to my alarm; I realized two things. One, I was extremely tired. Two, I survived. I made it my first night of being a lone.
The next few nights got easier and easier. I slowly was able to turn off more lights as the week went on. Eventually by Friday night, there were no lights on in the house and I was able to actually sleep. I still missed David like crazy. He is my best friend. I never realized how much I depend on him, just for my day to day venting sessions. When he was gone, Sadie had to fill in. Which, she is a great listener and all, but not a good advisor.
I have decided that I will make it when David goes to serve our country. I am going to try to get more involved in the foster kids program and hopefully I will also be able to volunteer down at the community center for seniors. I am still involved with the Optimist Club which I love. I am probably going to drop to part time when he leaves, so that I will be able to go on long weekends to visit David, but also be able to volunteer more. I plan on taking self-defense classes. Also, I have asked David to make sure I know how to shoot his gun. :) JUST IN CASE!!!! I have pepper spray and a taser... but I want to make sure I KNOW how to use his gun, if I need it.
All in all, I am excited for all the new revenues opening up for us. Plus, it is like a whole new honeymoon when he is home. Talk about falling in love, deeper than before, when we see each other again. <3
*Learning to Stifle is getting easier...*

Our New Friday Nights

So, last night really got me thinking. Our lives have changed so much from when we first started dating. On friday nights, I would be waiting for David to drive down from Portland to Redmond to see me. We would hang out until our curfew, which on the weekends was midnight. We would stay up and do as many things as possible with friends so we could just be with each other. Then, Saturday, we would meet up in the morning and do stuff all day until midnight again. Now that we are married and living in Oregon City... I just have to laugh at where we are. Last night, David and I thought, we should go out and eat! Our first thought was, "Why don't we see what your parents are doing and if they want to go with us?"
As a side note, most of you know that I wasn't always such a nice girl to my parents growing up. There were times were we all just flat out did NOT get a long. I am sure they didn't know where I would be in 5 years... or even 1. I gave my family a run for their money and did not have the amazing BLESSED relationship I have now with them. 
Anyways... As I was saying... we called my parents and asked if they wanted to go to dinner. So there we were, all four of us, almost like a double date, at Bugatti's. To me, it was just awesome to actually enjoy being there with them. To catch up on everyone's lives and to just be a family. It still makes me laugh though how our friday nights have changed to hanging out with parents and in bed by ten. :)

Another Day, Another Pound

Many of you know that I have changed my eating lifestyle, pretty dramatically. At first, I thought my body would go into starvation mode and kill me. However, there IS light at then end of this tunnel. I now have more energy than I have ever had. I don't lay in bed at night and think, "No wonder why you are so big, look at all the junk food you ate today."I don't get sick anymore after eating meals. AND I was at 154 at my highest weight, last fall. I am, as of today, 135. Wow! What a good number to have. Only a few more to go before I would feel okay about having a baby in this body! I want my children to grow up in a healthy home and I want them to feel good about themselves. How can I do that when I wasn't feeling good myself? No more processed foods for this girl. I mean, sure, maybe every once in a while. But for the long run, no more. I refuse to continue to feed my body the foods that have been making me sick. I am sticking to meat, vegetables, and fruit.
UPDATE, as of this morning I am actually down to 134. YES! I hope to have great recipes for people to try on here someday. I have been following a few websites on recipes and ideas.
<3<3 I will keep you all posted. Much love to all of you.

2011 Was a Good Year After All....

Feels so good to be done with counseling. Life can get complicated. I feel everyone sometimes needs to check in with someone. We have come such a long way from last year around this time. God is good. He always has given me grace, but I feel like the past year, He has really changed my heart. He has opened my eyes to what is important, what can subside, and what He has under control. This last year, I was able to meet Miss Addison Jean Shaw, my beautiful precious niece. I was able to realize that I am ready for children and I need to get my body back into shape. My children will NOT have the same food addictions I once had. I was able to see my bestest friend in the whole wide world and sister from another mother ( or is it the same mother?!?!?), Tera. I have never felt so complete in my life as I have this past year. Our marriage has never been stronger and more united. David is going places with the Air Force. If you would have asked me how life was treating me this time last year, I am afraid I wouldn't have the same upbeat attitude. However, 2012 is going to be an amazing year for us. It will continue to get better.

Short, Sweet, and To The Point

Life is about to get crazy around this house! David leaves for Ohio for a flight physical in less than 3 weeks. It is crazy how everything is starting to fall into place for the Air Force with him! And you know what that means?! We are closer to starting our family! Yah!!! I am still working for the awesome doctor. Life is good. Sadie is now a year and a half years old and has calmed down... about 15%. Lord help us all with her. She is full of energy and a true blessing in our life. I am almost half way down with a crocheted blanket I made for a baby that was born last March, yes as in 2011. :) Oh well. At least I will finish! David and I are off processed foods and have been feeling great. Well, I am officially off processed foods, David still dabbles. :) Ok, I am off this for tonight. I will keep you posted on David's travels and Grandma Heath's trip to visit us in 4 weeks!