Patience is a virtue?

Well, we are still currently waiting to hear from the air force to see if and when David leaves. The national board met last week to make their final cut. Only 35 out of the 50 applicants will be hired on. He was sponsored by the McCord airforce base in Tacoma Washington, but the national board holds all the cards. I am exhausted. I honestly don't know how I will react if he doesn't get in. Right now, I can't even think that way or I will have a panic attack. I will keep everyone posted on what the outcome is. Hopefully this week! It is getting harder for me to be happy for all the pregnant people in my life. Call it selfish or jealousy, but it's difficult. Mostly, because I feel like we are taking all these steps to make sure everything is "right" whatever that means, and then everywhere I look, someone is pregnant that isn't taking the "right" steps. Frustrating. That's the best word for it. My heart aches to be able to have David's baby. To look down and hold a love that I so crave. I will continue to wait because I have to.... But I'm not happy about it! Lol. As for something else? I get to see my sweet sister this summer for a week. I can not wait to have fun memories and laugh until I pee. I miss having that one person that can totally get me. I mean, I have awesome friends, don't get me wrong. But there is something about having that one person in your life that I honestly feels like is connected to me. Even though we aren't technically sisters, I think of us as just that. Yahhhhhhhh for July!